Showing posts with label Random Ponderings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Random Ponderings. Show all posts
Thursday, November 11, 2010
So, I don't know how it's going to go, but I've started a tumblr. It's pennilesspo8.tumblr.com . I think I'll probably still write my blog posts here first, but I'll put everything else up on there....I think. Who knows really. So, check out the new post. It's purposely for Tumblr since it's kind of why I added it to my web portfolio...but I think it turned out really well and tells a lot about me.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
What would you do?
Okay, yes, I realize I didn't do any of what I promised to do last week. To be honest, I had a feeling that would happen when I said I'd do it. I actually started the one for HIMYM, but it just got too rambly and I got too busy...so it never got finished.
Anyway, after saying goodbye to Thomas today so he could go to work, I stopped off at Big Lots in order to find the paper shredder I felt I should have bought when I was at a different location earlier this week. They didn't have it, but I did end up buying this retro flip clock
that I loved the moment I saw it. I was super excited, because I love anything retro and it was only $13, but I was hesitant because money has been a little tight lately. Unfortunately the excitement has started to wear off because it's a pain to set and keep on the right time since, like a vending machine, it doesn't always release the number as it should. Rewind back to when I first bought it now. I stepped out of the store and there on the ground was a $10 bill. There was no one around and it was in the middle of the street, so I just picked it up.
Immediately I didn't really know what to do. I'd always been taught to ask around and try to find out whose it was or turn it into the authorities, which in this case would be the manager of the store I found it in. Since neither of these really applied, I was kind of at a loss. After a while, I migrated to trying to decide what finding such a thing meant. Of course, leave it to me to analyze something so simple.
What I came up with...
1) It could be a sign from God saying I needed to lighten up on myself and just buy stuff I like every once in a while.
2) It could be a test from God, to see what I would do. However, since, from what I remember, I've been taught to believe that God no longer tests us in that way, I feel I can discredit this idea.
3)It was just meant as a gesture to kind of help me with money and I should keep it for when I need it.
4)It was some sort of pay it forward thing....and I should give it away to charity, or some random person off the side of the street.
5)It was just luck.
Yes, I know I was over-thinking it a little too much....but I don't know...it just really struck something inside me. With all of the stress of wedding planning, work, housework, etc. It's been really nice to realize when things kind of fall in place like that. I've had a lot of help from a lot of people lately, especially with the wedding, and I'm so grateful and appreciative of it all. It really makes me feel loved and makes me really feel like this is all meant to be. I hope thats not too sappy for any of you.
As far as the $10 bill, it's still in my wallet...awaiting my decision. We'll just have to wait and see how it get's spent. So, as the title of this post asks, what would you do?
Anyway, after saying goodbye to Thomas today so he could go to work, I stopped off at Big Lots in order to find the paper shredder I felt I should have bought when I was at a different location earlier this week. They didn't have it, but I did end up buying this retro flip clock
that I loved the moment I saw it. I was super excited, because I love anything retro and it was only $13, but I was hesitant because money has been a little tight lately. Unfortunately the excitement has started to wear off because it's a pain to set and keep on the right time since, like a vending machine, it doesn't always release the number as it should. Rewind back to when I first bought it now. I stepped out of the store and there on the ground was a $10 bill. There was no one around and it was in the middle of the street, so I just picked it up.Immediately I didn't really know what to do. I'd always been taught to ask around and try to find out whose it was or turn it into the authorities, which in this case would be the manager of the store I found it in. Since neither of these really applied, I was kind of at a loss. After a while, I migrated to trying to decide what finding such a thing meant. Of course, leave it to me to analyze something so simple.
What I came up with...
1) It could be a sign from God saying I needed to lighten up on myself and just buy stuff I like every once in a while.
2) It could be a test from God, to see what I would do. However, since, from what I remember, I've been taught to believe that God no longer tests us in that way, I feel I can discredit this idea.
3)It was just meant as a gesture to kind of help me with money and I should keep it for when I need it.
4)It was some sort of pay it forward thing....and I should give it away to charity, or some random person off the side of the street.
5)It was just luck.
Yes, I know I was over-thinking it a little too much....but I don't know...it just really struck something inside me. With all of the stress of wedding planning, work, housework, etc. It's been really nice to realize when things kind of fall in place like that. I've had a lot of help from a lot of people lately, especially with the wedding, and I'm so grateful and appreciative of it all. It really makes me feel loved and makes me really feel like this is all meant to be. I hope thats not too sappy for any of you.
As far as the $10 bill, it's still in my wallet...awaiting my decision. We'll just have to wait and see how it get's spent. So, as the title of this post asks, what would you do?
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
What to hopefully expect if I ever get the time....
So, I just read my good friend Katie's blog, featured over in the right column over there, 2010 a Marriage Odyssey, where she used a list to go ahead and go through and talk about all of the things she's been wanting to say. I don't really plan on doing that exactly, I thought that I might as well post a list of topics I'm dying to write about on here, and then whenever I do find the time to write, I won't have to sit around secretly chastising myself for forgetting.
1. An Education - a few things about the film, as well as the stupidity that allowed me to find the time to finally watch it.
2. Celebrity - My growth from a fanatical teen to an appreciative audience and why the former probably happened in the first place.
3. Briar Rose - Whenever I get around to it, if I still remember enough about the book to write about it thoughtfully and objectively, I will. If not, I'll just write about the other latest book I've read.
4..pending...I know there's other stuff I want to write about, I just can't think of it right now.
If this helps I may periodically edit this post, or just make new ones adding on to the list....I guess it depends on if I've written anything since or not. Oh well, back to work.
Cheers
1. An Education - a few things about the film, as well as the stupidity that allowed me to find the time to finally watch it.
2. Celebrity - My growth from a fanatical teen to an appreciative audience and why the former probably happened in the first place.
3. Briar Rose - Whenever I get around to it, if I still remember enough about the book to write about it thoughtfully and objectively, I will. If not, I'll just write about the other latest book I've read.
4..pending...I know there's other stuff I want to write about, I just can't think of it right now.
If this helps I may periodically edit this post, or just make new ones adding on to the list....I guess it depends on if I've written anything since or not. Oh well, back to work.
Cheers
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Superheroes part dos
So, obviously, I've been meaning to finish this for a while, as I always am. A lot of stuff has come up and there are some crazy changes going on in my life. Moving on though, when I think superheroes, I think powers, and which ones I'd actually consider having. Some of you might be like, "Dude, of course you would want a superpower," but on the contrary, I see a lot of them as flawed. In a way they are almost like a hamartia, a "tragic flaw," though not one the hero can really be blamed for as you might normally would for say, Oedipus
. Lets look at some of the more attractive powers
Super Strength
I think this is probably the most popular power, which is probably due to the fact that I think it was one of the first in the comic book realm. People didn't really get creative about powers until later. Anyway, Yes, super strength is rather attractive, especially when you think of how much good you could do when things go awry. Just right to your left, Superman is stopping a bank robbery. My only issue is with controlling it. Is one able to turn it on and off, or do they just make a point to be extra, extra careful when doing anything else in life? If its the former, than fine, the only issue you might have is if you got really upset and purposefully hurt someone who just made you a bit angry or jealous. If its the latter however, I can't imagine how difficult it might would be to be so gentle. Unless you got really good with it, you would constantly be hurting those you loved or breaking fragile things like teacups and lightbulbs. Of course, there are even more picky issues with the power like, how does your skin withhold the pressure of so much force when you use the power, or what density would your muscles truly have to be (unless of course its just magic)? These things aren't really of any consequence though because you're suppose to suspend your disbelief on the issue and just accept that the power is a truth.
Healing
So I know there are a lot of different heroes, villains, and other various characters with this ability, but my favorite is Wolverine.
I also think he's the perfect example of all that can go wrong with this power. First of all, he's been a horrible lab experiment and had adamantium fused to his skeleton (twice I believe). Not only is that horribly painful, but inhumane. Also, it set him up for the time that Magneto ripped the metal from his skeleton during a battle. There are some forms of injury and pain you just don't want to come back from. Of course, one thing does have a big impact on this issue, the speed of regeneration. If you heal almost instantly, then okay, that's not so bad, but if it takes several days or even weeks, that would be ridiculously painful. Anyway, another thing to refute over with this healing power, is how long it allows you to live. Sure, especially with all of the vampire literature about, living forever does seem to have it's perks, but I think it would be boring after a while. After you've lived to see everything, if you're the kind of person to care about culture and what not, what are you going to do. Yes of course, there are constantly technological advances that one might would want to see, but after a while that might even begin to seem like the same thing over and over again. Unless you're power was recognized in the public, which for someone born even today, that is very unlikely, you'd have to live a secret life of mystery and deception, not ever letting anyone truly closed to you. Also, those that you did let get close to you, would eventually die, or even be killed because of you. You could just become immune to death, but really, would you want to live a life like that and not have any stock in human life?
Telepathy
So I've always been into this power, I guess because I'm extremely aware of my surroundings and am always worried I've made someone think ill of me. Shamefully I have even thought something merely because I was worried someone might somehow hear it, and then immediately worry that somebody has. I'm not crazy, just a little quirky with an open mind to the possibly paranormal. So, of course I have always been aware, at least partially, of the side effects of this ability. First of all, unless you can turn it off, you run the risk of going a little bit insane. Your mind makes you who you are, excluding you soul for the moment, and if you lose it, you're nothing. You're just a body, a vessel for a soul that can't express itself because it has no mind to convey any aspect of itself. One thing I hadn't thought of so much until the last few years since I read the first Sookie Stackhouse novel by Charlaine Harris
, is how just how horrible it would be and how self conscious you might get if you did hear everything everybody though about you. I had thought about it on the more general level of just hearing what passersby had to say about you, but not that you may never have a healthy, working relationship because of it. What's especially worrisome is the idea of hearing what your loved one is really thinking of while he or she is consoling you, kissing you, or even making love to you. I'm not a prude, but I know that would pretty much scar me for life.
Super Intelligence
This is an ability I would actually like to have, as long as I knew how to keep my ego down and my mouth shut at the appropriate times, which is something Tony Stark
definitely needs to work on. If you don't, obviously, a whole ton of crap can happen to you. You can get kidnapped by the enemy, create vendettas worldwide, and on a smaller level, never have a friend that thinks he's on your level. The only issues I think there would be if you theoretically used the power right, is the distance that would be created between you any anyone you loved because they are not on your intellectual level, as well as the issue of learning too much about the world. When I say this last one, I mean that you learn about so much evil and pain in the world that you lose all hope in humanity or even the existence of being.
Telekinesis
So finally, this is the power I find the most practical, if thats even what one should be thinking in terms of having a special ability. Yes, my example to the left, Jean Grey
does end up turning evil, but I would argue that that is because she also had mind reading capabilities that made her extra susceptible to being controlled by someone with similar powers. If you simply just had telekinesis, you could definitely do damage if you wanted to, but if used right, it would really just be like being that young wizard who uses his powers to do his chores rather than actually doing them. I guess you could get extra lazy and have develop weight issues, but that already happens. I think telekinesis would be really nice for getting things done on a busy day, or doing those menial chores that would normally take up the time you could be using to do something more important. Really, it would just make things a little easier, like holding a book you're reading or grabbing a really hot pan out of the oven. My fiancé and I had some other ideas the other day, but for the life of me I can't remember what they were. I do think at one time we were playing with the idea of whether or not telekinesis would allow you to heal yourself because technically you would be able to connect your veins, tissues and what not back together. It would all boil down to whether or not you could fuse them back together or not, or if you could, in the time allotted before you passed our or died from a serious injury.
If you have any arguments, feel free to give them. I do not claim to be a comic book guru or anything of the sort. I've just read and seen some things that fill me in here and there. You might complain that I left out things like x-ray vision, shifting, or even magic as a whole. This was a conscious decision made because then I would just be writing for hours about every little power I could think of. This way, I just took the several powers I thought I could talk about and focused on them. Focus is a main issue for me so I wanted there to me as little leeway as possible. Speaking of focusing, I need to get back to work and jump in the shower.
Cheers
. Lets look at some of the more attractive powers
Super Strength
I think this is probably the most popular power, which is probably due to the fact that I think it was one of the first in the comic book realm. People didn't really get creative about powers until later. Anyway, Yes, super strength is rather attractive, especially when you think of how much good you could do when things go awry. Just right to your left, Superman is stopping a bank robbery. My only issue is with controlling it. Is one able to turn it on and off, or do they just make a point to be extra, extra careful when doing anything else in life? If its the former, than fine, the only issue you might have is if you got really upset and purposefully hurt someone who just made you a bit angry or jealous. If its the latter however, I can't imagine how difficult it might would be to be so gentle. Unless you got really good with it, you would constantly be hurting those you loved or breaking fragile things like teacups and lightbulbs. Of course, there are even more picky issues with the power like, how does your skin withhold the pressure of so much force when you use the power, or what density would your muscles truly have to be (unless of course its just magic)? These things aren't really of any consequence though because you're suppose to suspend your disbelief on the issue and just accept that the power is a truth.
So I know there are a lot of different heroes, villains, and other various characters with this ability, but my favorite is Wolverine.
I also think he's the perfect example of all that can go wrong with this power. First of all, he's been a horrible lab experiment and had adamantium fused to his skeleton (twice I believe). Not only is that horribly painful, but inhumane. Also, it set him up for the time that Magneto ripped the metal from his skeleton during a battle. There are some forms of injury and pain you just don't want to come back from. Of course, one thing does have a big impact on this issue, the speed of regeneration. If you heal almost instantly, then okay, that's not so bad, but if it takes several days or even weeks, that would be ridiculously painful. Anyway, another thing to refute over with this healing power, is how long it allows you to live. Sure, especially with all of the vampire literature about, living forever does seem to have it's perks, but I think it would be boring after a while. After you've lived to see everything, if you're the kind of person to care about culture and what not, what are you going to do. Yes of course, there are constantly technological advances that one might would want to see, but after a while that might even begin to seem like the same thing over and over again. Unless you're power was recognized in the public, which for someone born even today, that is very unlikely, you'd have to live a secret life of mystery and deception, not ever letting anyone truly closed to you. Also, those that you did let get close to you, would eventually die, or even be killed because of you. You could just become immune to death, but really, would you want to live a life like that and not have any stock in human life?
So I've always been into this power, I guess because I'm extremely aware of my surroundings and am always worried I've made someone think ill of me. Shamefully I have even thought something merely because I was worried someone might somehow hear it, and then immediately worry that somebody has. I'm not crazy, just a little quirky with an open mind to the possibly paranormal. So, of course I have always been aware, at least partially, of the side effects of this ability. First of all, unless you can turn it off, you run the risk of going a little bit insane. Your mind makes you who you are, excluding you soul for the moment, and if you lose it, you're nothing. You're just a body, a vessel for a soul that can't express itself because it has no mind to convey any aspect of itself. One thing I hadn't thought of so much until the last few years since I read the first Sookie Stackhouse novel by Charlaine Harris
, is how just how horrible it would be and how self conscious you might get if you did hear everything everybody though about you. I had thought about it on the more general level of just hearing what passersby had to say about you, but not that you may never have a healthy, working relationship because of it. What's especially worrisome is the idea of hearing what your loved one is really thinking of while he or she is consoling you, kissing you, or even making love to you. I'm not a prude, but I know that would pretty much scar me for life.
This is an ability I would actually like to have, as long as I knew how to keep my ego down and my mouth shut at the appropriate times, which is something Tony Stark
definitely needs to work on. If you don't, obviously, a whole ton of crap can happen to you. You can get kidnapped by the enemy, create vendettas worldwide, and on a smaller level, never have a friend that thinks he's on your level. The only issues I think there would be if you theoretically used the power right, is the distance that would be created between you any anyone you loved because they are not on your intellectual level, as well as the issue of learning too much about the world. When I say this last one, I mean that you learn about so much evil and pain in the world that you lose all hope in humanity or even the existence of being.
So finally, this is the power I find the most practical, if thats even what one should be thinking in terms of having a special ability. Yes, my example to the left, Jean Grey
does end up turning evil, but I would argue that that is because she also had mind reading capabilities that made her extra susceptible to being controlled by someone with similar powers. If you simply just had telekinesis, you could definitely do damage if you wanted to, but if used right, it would really just be like being that young wizard who uses his powers to do his chores rather than actually doing them. I guess you could get extra lazy and have develop weight issues, but that already happens. I think telekinesis would be really nice for getting things done on a busy day, or doing those menial chores that would normally take up the time you could be using to do something more important. Really, it would just make things a little easier, like holding a book you're reading or grabbing a really hot pan out of the oven. My fiancé and I had some other ideas the other day, but for the life of me I can't remember what they were. I do think at one time we were playing with the idea of whether or not telekinesis would allow you to heal yourself because technically you would be able to connect your veins, tissues and what not back together. It would all boil down to whether or not you could fuse them back together or not, or if you could, in the time allotted before you passed our or died from a serious injury.If you have any arguments, feel free to give them. I do not claim to be a comic book guru or anything of the sort. I've just read and seen some things that fill me in here and there. You might complain that I left out things like x-ray vision, shifting, or even magic as a whole. This was a conscious decision made because then I would just be writing for hours about every little power I could think of. This way, I just took the several powers I thought I could talk about and focused on them. Focus is a main issue for me so I wanted there to me as little leeway as possible. Speaking of focusing, I need to get back to work and jump in the shower.
Cheers
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
whoops
so I thought I had done well, but there are a few typos/words altered by the phone's t9 like programming that I didn't notice...and I don't feel like going through the hassle of turning on my laptop for a few little words.
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superheroes
Hello blog,
I haven't posted on ages, not because I haven't wanted to, but because every time I have gotten the urge to write about something I've been busy with work, moving, visiting with family that hasn't been seen for far too long, etc. Right now however I am sitting here wide awake in the middle of the night (I have to be up in five or six hours. gah!) and have just recently gotten a new phone that allows me to post without causing too much ruckus and waking up my fiance asleep next to me.
Okay, so, you might be wondering what all is this has to do with superheroes. Nothing so far. I was really wanting to round out my day off with a blog, but by the time I say down to work on it, all of the topics I had previously decided on seemed momentarily dull. So, I checked out all of my favorite blogs to see if I could find some inspiration, which I did. My beloved friend Katie, of 2010 A Marriage Odyssey, posted a delightful post I'm which she explained that she had discovered a blog that posted a new prompt for blogging each Saturday. This week it is superheroes. I meant to join her in her blogging venture immediately, but having lost track of time, needed to go get dinner on the stove.
I, unfortunately will have to finish this as she did hers however, with a to be continued, as it is getting far too late and my eyelids are finally starting to droop. Hopefully this has not been too much of a waste of time. I do wish to write on the subject, but it must wait for tomorrow. At least now I've gotten some practice in with this touch screen keyboard and feel confident I can write full posts in the future.
cheers
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Friday, April 16, 2010
Where Things Are
So, I haven't written in a while...this is because I have all of these ideas of where to take the blog...and every time I want to actually do something about it...I have a shiz-ton of homework to do. I graduate in about three weeks (ahh!) so I should have a lot more time after that. One thing though, that I might start doing, is taking the shows that I watch and comment on them as I watch them/rewatch them...These entrees will be rather long probably...and definitely full of Spoilers...but I think it might help me get focused and work on my analytical skills...especially now that I'm graduating and don't want to loose them....also I've got to actually do something with them. I don't know how much I'll do this with sitcoms...while a lot of them do have an overall story line they are following, you can't really be analytical...They tend to be a great deal more episodic...We'll see what happens though. Maybe they'll just have really short entrees.
Another thing I've been thinking about doing is a webcomic...I don't really know how this will pan out. I haven't practiced on my bamboo in a week or so...and I need to come up with a distinct style (that's easy to work with), characters, and a story line...I have ideas for books and things, but I really think I might keep those to myself for the simple fact that the internet is not the most trustworthy of mediums if you want to keep something for yourself...
Well, I have got to go...first episode might come tonight if I get time. I'm probably going back a week on Bones and rewatching The Parts of the Sum in the Whole (I think thats the title)...merely because I like it a lot and there is a lot to say about it. Okay, well I've got to go.
Cheers
Another thing I've been thinking about doing is a webcomic...I don't really know how this will pan out. I haven't practiced on my bamboo in a week or so...and I need to come up with a distinct style (that's easy to work with), characters, and a story line...I have ideas for books and things, but I really think I might keep those to myself for the simple fact that the internet is not the most trustworthy of mediums if you want to keep something for yourself...
Well, I have got to go...first episode might come tonight if I get time. I'm probably going back a week on Bones and rewatching The Parts of the Sum in the Whole (I think thats the title)...merely because I like it a lot and there is a lot to say about it. Okay, well I've got to go.
Cheers
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
So, I was trying to use this space to do something completely unrelated to blogging and when I used the command code ctrl+p it published emptiness instead of pasting what I was trying to save. I am apparently not allowed to delete the post...but do not have the focus to make it into anything at the moment...so there you go...
cheers
Monday, February 8, 2010
Today I had time to kill, so I decided to start a graphic novel. Progress! Not really though because I only got four frames, in pencil, on ruled paper. It is a start though.
btw,
...was a great movie. If you've seen it, let me know. I read the ending completely
different from everyone else and I'd like to know that I am not alone.
-cheers
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Ignorance
I recently was a part of the wedding of one of my dearest friends, who just so happens to be a part of the Church of Latter Day Saints. It was a great and beautiful experience. I was reminded however, while I was there, that Katie and I haven't gotten to talk much over the last few years (she moved to VA) and I need a refresher course on her faith. It is not that I forget what she told me before, its that I am not fully aware of the portions of her faith that apply more to her now than before, like marriage and endowment. I could just wikipedia it, which I did somewhat, but I feel that I am cheating myself, as well as Katie, by doing so. For something so intrinsic to her soul, I really need to learn how she believes and not what everyone else thinks she believes.
For some religions I may or may not feel okay just doing a little research online, but, as I have learned, Mormons are very often prejudiced against and therefore, whatever I find online may be skewed. Also, a lot of the prejudice against them is merely from ignorance. There have been multiple times that I have read something somewhere about the Church of Latter Day Saints that is clearly written as a reason you should stay away from Mormons and it has been completely false. This is one of the things I hate most about the world. People go through life ignorant, but act as though they know whats going on. I admit that I am ignorant of a lot of things...but that's it right there, I admit it. I do not like to give opinions on things I do not know anything about. I think its ridiculous. I also try not to judge people, especially not until I know the whole story behind why they are the way they are. I think the world would be a much better place if everyone did this.
For example, in one of my classes last semester, we read Norman Mailer's The Executioner's Song. The novel is a new journalistic approach to the story of Gary Gilmore, the first man to be put to death once capital punishment was reinstated. Anyway, my teacher led a discussion over whether Mailer completely degraded (though thats not the word I'm looking for) the Mormon victim's of Gilmore because she said they seemed cookie cutter and flat. This was based on the fact that their idea of fun was throwing cream pies at each other, that they went to Disneyland for their honeymoon, and other such things. I guess for people who do not know or understand Mormons, it may seem a little bit ridiculous that the reader is to believe that there are adults that are truly like this in life.
One girl in my class spoke up and said that if you knew any Mormons, which she did, that they were just happy people and that through their beliefs of purity and what not, this is truly how they are. No one seemed to listen to her. I still feel bad that I did not speak up. I completely agree. This is not meant to degrade anyone either. The Mormons I know are some of the best people I have ever met. Sure, they don't go out drinking, sleep around, watch R rated movies, or even drink coffee, like all of the "cool people," but I find that endearing. They know what they believe. They know how to live their lives the way they feel they should, and they do exactly that. If anything I am jealous of their abilities to live life like that. I do not choose to live my life entirely like they do, I do curse, watch R rated movies etc., but I am completely okay that they do. I respect them wholeheartedly.
Granted, some people might judge me because I do live my life rather reserved, as in I don't drink or party or any of that. Oh well. I think the biggest problem along with ignorance is that people assume that since someone does not do the same things they do, then they obviously must be judging them and assuming they are going to hell. The world is not black and white. The absence of love is not necessarily hate. There is a wide spectrum of feelings between the two extremes.
The point is, I know that it is probably impossible, but I just wish people would be a little bit more knowledgeable and respectful of everyone else. No one can go through this life alone. You need people if you want to survive. Its stupid to hate, you're only bringing yourself down. Trust and embrace the people you meet in life. Don't hate them because they are not just like you. Love them because they are different.
cheers
For some religions I may or may not feel okay just doing a little research online, but, as I have learned, Mormons are very often prejudiced against and therefore, whatever I find online may be skewed. Also, a lot of the prejudice against them is merely from ignorance. There have been multiple times that I have read something somewhere about the Church of Latter Day Saints that is clearly written as a reason you should stay away from Mormons and it has been completely false. This is one of the things I hate most about the world. People go through life ignorant, but act as though they know whats going on. I admit that I am ignorant of a lot of things...but that's it right there, I admit it. I do not like to give opinions on things I do not know anything about. I think its ridiculous. I also try not to judge people, especially not until I know the whole story behind why they are the way they are. I think the world would be a much better place if everyone did this.
For example, in one of my classes last semester, we read Norman Mailer's The Executioner's Song. The novel is a new journalistic approach to the story of Gary Gilmore, the first man to be put to death once capital punishment was reinstated. Anyway, my teacher led a discussion over whether Mailer completely degraded (though thats not the word I'm looking for) the Mormon victim's of Gilmore because she said they seemed cookie cutter and flat. This was based on the fact that their idea of fun was throwing cream pies at each other, that they went to Disneyland for their honeymoon, and other such things. I guess for people who do not know or understand Mormons, it may seem a little bit ridiculous that the reader is to believe that there are adults that are truly like this in life.
One girl in my class spoke up and said that if you knew any Mormons, which she did, that they were just happy people and that through their beliefs of purity and what not, this is truly how they are. No one seemed to listen to her. I still feel bad that I did not speak up. I completely agree. This is not meant to degrade anyone either. The Mormons I know are some of the best people I have ever met. Sure, they don't go out drinking, sleep around, watch R rated movies, or even drink coffee, like all of the "cool people," but I find that endearing. They know what they believe. They know how to live their lives the way they feel they should, and they do exactly that. If anything I am jealous of their abilities to live life like that. I do not choose to live my life entirely like they do, I do curse, watch R rated movies etc., but I am completely okay that they do. I respect them wholeheartedly.
Granted, some people might judge me because I do live my life rather reserved, as in I don't drink or party or any of that. Oh well. I think the biggest problem along with ignorance is that people assume that since someone does not do the same things they do, then they obviously must be judging them and assuming they are going to hell. The world is not black and white. The absence of love is not necessarily hate. There is a wide spectrum of feelings between the two extremes.
The point is, I know that it is probably impossible, but I just wish people would be a little bit more knowledgeable and respectful of everyone else. No one can go through this life alone. You need people if you want to survive. Its stupid to hate, you're only bringing yourself down. Trust and embrace the people you meet in life. Don't hate them because they are not just like you. Love them because they are different.
cheers
Friday, January 1, 2010
Happy New Year!
So,
I'm here watching my fiancé put together the bookcase my dad gave me for Christmas. In case you're wondering why I'm not helping, he won't let me. New Years Eve was fun, but rather dangerous. Thomas caught his hair on fire and got hit by a firework. I got temporarily deafened by an artillery shell that blew up on the ground rather than in the air like it is supposed to. Several other mishaps with explosives occurred, but I do not feel like listing them. I would have pictures, but alas, I only just found my camera battery charger. I therefore have no pictures of Christmas, the after Christmas visit to VA/D.C., or anything else. Oh well, besides the loss of memory inducing pictures for when I get old, it was probably good for me. I was forced to experience things directly rather than at one remove through the camera lense/as events than merely existed to be photographed. The only picture I have of the holidays actually, is one that I drew of Thomas/the fiancé. More to write later. I better go see if he'll let me help now.
Cheers!
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!
So yeah, school crap pretty much drowned me for a few weeks and then my bookstore flooded...so its been a hectic few weeks...but thankfully I am finally on vacation for a week or so.
I can't really post anything long so here are my thoughts:
People, not on the individual level, just the general populace, are dumb and make me angry.
The Ugly Truth-Watched it last night....I thought it could have been better. It probably would have been more enjoyable in a different setting (i.e. not with the father). I would have theoretically found it funnier and theoretically would have been less disconnected and therefore less critical.
Inglorious Basterds- Bought it! yay! Just as awesome on re-watch.
(500) days of Summer-Dying to get it for Christmas so I can re-watch it and be in heaven again.
Bones Christmas episode: ;)
whoops, no more time...The food is ready at my Grandmothers, so we best get over there.
Enjoy the Holidays!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Randomness While Sick
So, before I say anything else, Monday night television was delightful. HIMYM was much better, though I don't know how I feel about this Don fellow, and BBT was great as always.
Right now I am suppose to be at the bookstore working, but like many days lately, I'm feeling a bit sick and had to call out. I took some medicine so I'm feeling much better though. For the last hour or so I've just been hanging around online doing this and that....catching up on shows and what not...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zxa6P73Awcg <--Stephen Fry tweeted this earlier in the day. amAZing! The world never ceases with its wonder. Thats why I love the phrase in my banner, "There's too much beauty to quit." Its from This amazingly written and edited movie Stay. ( no clue why I keep using amazing.) The whole film really kind of is about beauty in a way. I've been thinking a lot about this topic the last few days. This, of course, being spurred by the fact that we're reading Virginia Woolf in Modern British Literature. I love it....mainly though because I have always been so transfixed by beauty, both tragic and not. Isn't it curious that, both Stay and a lot of Virginia Woolf's work, not to mention countless other works that talk about this beauty, are closely linked to suicide? Is it that the artistic soul is just naturally depressed because of all of the sadness they perceive, or is the artistic soul just naturally a bit off its rocker to begin with? Eh, who knows. By the way, no need to worry. I am not suicidal. I might be a little paranoid and my "mind is rather wreckless" , but that is all. I just think the relationship is interesting. I do like this last paragraph from The Unknown Virginia Woolf;
"In 1941, it was the embodiment of Virginia which forced her decision. She could not face being blown to bits. The water was her friend ever since she was a child in Cornwall. The water could be trusted. The water was peace. The water would receive her with the dignity that she felt she needed, and indeed, deserved" (Poole 279).
More to come probably on this subject later probably as I sit down to work on my paper on To The Lighthouse. For now I must retreat back into A Thousand Acres and research on it so as to be prepared for my presentation on Monday.
I will leave you with this, the last scene of The Hours, because I've been thinking of this movie over and over again while we've been reading Mrs. Dalloway and its just wunderbare.
(also this is an adorable homemade music video for Mraz' Sleeping to Dream if you want to watch it http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0274558/)
Cheers
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Group Projects DO NOT work
This is a quote from one of my housemates to my rant yesterday about how I expected to get some real work done on my presentation with my group during our meeting, but didn't get anything done. I had my slides outlined and my pictures on my usb (though for some reason they weren't there) and one other girl had her slides done. The third party, however, was like 20 minutes late and didn't have anything done....and now tonight, when we finally emailed in our slides to one person and put it all together, that same person didn't do anything really how she was suppose to, and the presentation is tomorrow. There is always that one person who isn't quite on board. Work was done, I just wish we could have had more communication is all...or at least successful communication. I understand why we must have them, but yeah, group projects, even simple ones, are frustrating.
Okay, so I really wish that was written better...but oh well. I was just ranting. Now that that is over with, I need to write a critique on Pasolini's "Mamma Roma" (1962), practice my presentation some more and read some Joyce and some Morrison.
P.S. I constantly have stuff I want to write about, but by the time I get around to it, something has happened. That whole hope of being more focused on here this semester has really deflated. From here on out I will try to govern my time better and get stuff written.
Okay, so I really wish that was written better...but oh well. I was just ranting. Now that that is over with, I need to write a critique on Pasolini's "Mamma Roma" (1962), practice my presentation some more and read some Joyce and some Morrison.
P.S. I constantly have stuff I want to write about, but by the time I get around to it, something has happened. That whole hope of being more focused on here this semester has really deflated. From here on out I will try to govern my time better and get stuff written.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
cinedoche
So, you know who you are. If you see that I am following you...be happy, but do not judge what you read here. I planned on being über critical, but it has really just turned into my xanga for the "new" me. Hopefully, this will slightly change. I <3 you and envy your ability to focus.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
"everybody everybody wants to love. everybody everybody wants to be loved"
So I'm just sitting here, after my driving lesson, listening to Ingrid Michaelson's lovely new cd, reading blogs, and procrastinating.
I don't even really have anything too painful to procrastinate. I have to finish Slaughterhouse Five,
read about Religion and Pop Culture,
ponder my existence,
order some of my textbooks,
think about writing but not actually do so,
possibly write a critique of a Scorsese documentary,
and finish laminating my table (it has a paper collage on it and I'm using laminating sheets to make it a warrior against the elements).
Now that I look at it..that is a lot...I'll get right on it....as soon as I watch some television and finish off my egg drop soup. Yum.
(so I started looking for ingrid vids...and got sidetracked watching Matt N. ones...sooo...I'm going to publish this before I forget about it.)
So I'm just sitting here, after my driving lesson, listening to Ingrid Michaelson's lovely new cd, reading blogs, and procrastinating.
I don't even really have anything too painful to procrastinate. I have to finish Slaughterhouse Five,
read about Religion and Pop Culture,
ponder my existence,
order some of my textbooks,
think about writing but not actually do so,
possibly write a critique of a Scorsese documentary,
and finish laminating my table (it has a paper collage on it and I'm using laminating sheets to make it a warrior against the elements).
Now that I look at it..that is a lot...I'll get right on it....as soon as I watch some television and finish off my egg drop soup. Yum.
(so I started looking for ingrid vids...and got sidetracked watching Matt N. ones...sooo...I'm going to publish this before I forget about it.)
Friday, August 28, 2009
the first week
So, school has already made me tired. I'm excited to be learning what I am, but I'm not enjoying this strict schedule thing. Sure, over the summer I worked, but now I'm taking five classes and working 24-32 hours and that leaves no real time for anything but homework. I have been attempting to hang out for a while, but then I end up staying up too late finishing it all up. I let myself get too into the whole summer thing this time....or maybe just the non school thing. idk . I'll figure it out eventually. I think it takes, what, ten days to form a habit? I'm pretty sure thats it. So, hopefully, in a week or two, everything will be as it always was. I feel like I should be writing something purposeful or at least objective and important....but alas, I am not. I will probably waste my night away reading, listening to music, pondering about life and yes, even watching the Wizards of Waverly Place movie that premieres tonight....cus thats how I roll...
cheers peoples
cheers peoples
Monday, August 24, 2009
"But I'll learn to get by on little victories"
So, I haven't written all summer....and now, I only have a few hours left of mine. I start my senior year at College of Charleston tomorrow morning. Its scary as crap. Now that I think about it its kind of interesting. My first class of college was a tuesday morning at 9:25 (psychology 101) and now I'm beginning this last year the same way... except this time its Modern British Lit....a class I have been waiting to take for seriously ever. I am pretty excited about the classes I am taking this semester, but at the same time it seems seriously odd that I am in fact going back. For some reason, after this summer I feel very distanced from school. It almost feels like I have already shed that portion of my life. I don't know why. I guess its just all that has happened, along with the fact that I have become a great deal more independent. Then again, I did kind of feel like this when I went back to school last semester. I think I commented on that feeling.
So, how am I getting ready to begin the new school year? I'm listening to Matt Nathanson radio (amaaaazing....its on his site), putting off cleaning and getting ready for tomorrow. I was watching Wizards of Waverly Place online (thats right, I'm so lame I've gone looking for Disney shows! Oh well, its a short break from the heaviness of Bones), but now I'm back to Mr. Nathanson. I really wish my fiancé was here to calm me down and force me to be productive, but he won't be off work until midnight. I'll get to see him and then go immediately to sleep....though class tomorrow isn't nearly as early as when I have to open the store....so maybe I will stay up.
I'll have to decide sometime soon what I want to do with my life. I have been thinking about becoming a librarian, but I'm not so sure. I am really loving this idea of watching television and film and writing stuff about it....I don't really mean in the strictly critical way either.....I mean in the full on research applying, meta-whatnot way. I really need to just hone my process and work on actually getting words on the page. I have soooo many thoughts that run through my head all day that I want write down, but I never get around to actually focussing those thoughts into a thesis oriented paper of sorts....or even a novel. I have been working on bits of creative writing my whole life and I haven't gotten any of them really finished....This goes along with my focus. I'm going to be studying a great deal of the contemporary and abstract this semester and hopefully that will help me orient everything. I would love to write a novel in some sort of an experimental form....the marriage of the visual and the textual is amazing... It just requires work....and confidence....That could be my problem....and prob is....I'm not confident that everyone is going to get it/like it/ what not, so I shy away and then I end up so shied away that its not even what I believe in anymore...and therefore it doesn't get to stay....Bah....
I need to stop rambling and actually do something.... I pledge to attempt to be a better student and a more organized student this last year....I pledge to actually start working on things so that I can write my papers to their full potential and not let them shy away to Bs....I pledge to work my thoughts through fully and not let them simmer, even if they will get me an A as is...I pledge to stop just trying to BE and try to actually be what I want. By the time I get married (this time next year ish) I want to have a Novel under way (actually under way and GROWING) and to have seen Mr. Nathanson in concert at least once more....He's so my favorite and seeing him live the other night just proved that to myself even more. I feel for some reason that I have as of late really been figuring out what I'm made of and what drives me...and I really interested to see where that takes me....
Cheers
(the title reference Btw)
So, how am I getting ready to begin the new school year? I'm listening to Matt Nathanson radio (amaaaazing....its on his site), putting off cleaning and getting ready for tomorrow. I was watching Wizards of Waverly Place online (thats right, I'm so lame I've gone looking for Disney shows! Oh well, its a short break from the heaviness of Bones), but now I'm back to Mr. Nathanson. I really wish my fiancé was here to calm me down and force me to be productive, but he won't be off work until midnight. I'll get to see him and then go immediately to sleep....though class tomorrow isn't nearly as early as when I have to open the store....so maybe I will stay up.
I'll have to decide sometime soon what I want to do with my life. I have been thinking about becoming a librarian, but I'm not so sure. I am really loving this idea of watching television and film and writing stuff about it....I don't really mean in the strictly critical way either.....I mean in the full on research applying, meta-whatnot way. I really need to just hone my process and work on actually getting words on the page. I have soooo many thoughts that run through my head all day that I want write down, but I never get around to actually focussing those thoughts into a thesis oriented paper of sorts....or even a novel. I have been working on bits of creative writing my whole life and I haven't gotten any of them really finished....This goes along with my focus. I'm going to be studying a great deal of the contemporary and abstract this semester and hopefully that will help me orient everything. I would love to write a novel in some sort of an experimental form....the marriage of the visual and the textual is amazing... It just requires work....and confidence....That could be my problem....and prob is....I'm not confident that everyone is going to get it/like it/ what not, so I shy away and then I end up so shied away that its not even what I believe in anymore...and therefore it doesn't get to stay....Bah....
I need to stop rambling and actually do something.... I pledge to attempt to be a better student and a more organized student this last year....I pledge to actually start working on things so that I can write my papers to their full potential and not let them shy away to Bs....I pledge to work my thoughts through fully and not let them simmer, even if they will get me an A as is...I pledge to stop just trying to BE and try to actually be what I want. By the time I get married (this time next year ish) I want to have a Novel under way (actually under way and GROWING) and to have seen Mr. Nathanson in concert at least once more....He's so my favorite and seeing him live the other night just proved that to myself even more. I feel for some reason that I have as of late really been figuring out what I'm made of and what drives me...and I really interested to see where that takes me....
Cheers
(the title reference Btw)
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