So, I was trying to use this space to do something completely unrelated to blogging and when I used the command code ctrl+p it published emptiness instead of pasting what I was trying to save. I am apparently not allowed to delete the post...but do not have the focus to make it into anything at the moment...so there you go...

cheers

Today I had time to kill, so I decided to start a graphic novel. Progress! Not really though because I only got four frames, in pencil, on ruled paper. It is a start though.

btw,

...was a great movie. If you've seen it, let me know. I read the ending completely

different from everyone else and I'd like to know that I am not alone.

-cheers

Is it a problem when you look back at your posts and just want to delete most of them because you feel like they are lame and stupid? I would start anew, but I would probably fall back into the same rut...I need to remember how to write...become objective....and get a focus...

Ignorance

I recently was a part of the wedding of one of my dearest friends, who just so happens to be a part of the Church of Latter Day Saints. It was a great and beautiful experience. I was reminded however, while I was there, that Katie and I haven't gotten to talk much over the last few years (she moved to VA) and I need a refresher course on her faith. It is not that I forget what she told me before, its that I am not fully aware of the portions of her faith that apply more to her now than before, like marriage and endowment. I could just wikipedia it, which I did somewhat, but I feel that I am cheating myself, as well as Katie, by doing so. For something so intrinsic to her soul, I really need to learn how she believes and not what everyone else thinks she believes.
For some religions I may or may not feel okay just doing a little research online, but, as I have learned, Mormons are very often prejudiced against and therefore, whatever I find online may be skewed. Also, a lot of the prejudice against them is merely from ignorance. There have been multiple times that I have read something somewhere about the Church of Latter Day Saints that is clearly written as a reason you should stay away from Mormons and it has been completely false. This is one of the things I hate most about the world. People go through life ignorant, but act as though they know whats going on. I admit that I am ignorant of a lot of things...but that's it right there, I admit it. I do not like to give opinions on things I do not know anything about. I think its ridiculous. I also try not to judge people, especially not until I know the whole story behind why they are the way they are. I think the world would be a much better place if everyone did this.
For example, in one of my classes last semester, we read Norman Mailer's The Executioner's Song. The novel is a new journalistic approach to the story of Gary Gilmore, the first man to be put to death once capital punishment was reinstated. Anyway, my teacher led a discussion over whether Mailer completely degraded (though thats not the word I'm looking for) the Mormon victim's of Gilmore because she said they seemed cookie cutter and flat. This was based on the fact that their idea of fun was throwing cream pies at each other, that they went to Disneyland for their honeymoon, and other such things. I guess for people who do not know or understand Mormons, it may seem a little bit ridiculous that the reader is to believe that there are adults that are truly like this in life.
One girl in my class spoke up and said that if you knew any Mormons, which she did, that they were just happy people and that through their beliefs of purity and what not, this is truly how they are. No one seemed to listen to her. I still feel bad that I did not speak up. I completely agree. This is not meant to degrade anyone either. The Mormons I know are some of the best people I have ever met. Sure, they don't go out drinking, sleep around, watch R rated movies, or even drink coffee, like all of the "cool people," but I find that endearing. They know what they believe. They know how to live their lives the way they feel they should, and they do exactly that. If anything I am jealous of their abilities to live life like that. I do not choose to live my life entirely like they do, I do curse, watch R rated movies etc., but I am completely okay that they do. I respect them wholeheartedly.
Granted, some people might judge me because I do live my life rather reserved, as in I don't drink or party or any of that. Oh well. I think the biggest problem along with ignorance is that people assume that since someone does not do the same things they do, then they obviously must be judging them and assuming they are going to hell. The world is not black and white. The absence of love is not necessarily hate. There is a wide spectrum of feelings between the two extremes.
The point is, I know that it is probably impossible, but I just wish people would be a little bit more knowledgeable and respectful of everyone else. No one can go through this life alone. You need people if you want to survive. Its stupid to hate, you're only bringing yourself down. Trust and embrace the people you meet in life. Don't hate them because they are not just like you. Love them because they are different.

cheers

Happy New Year!

So,

I'm here watching my fiancé put together the bookcase my dad gave me for Christmas. In case you're wondering why I'm not helping, he won't let me. New Years Eve was fun, but rather dangerous. Thomas caught his hair on fire and got hit by a firework. I got temporarily deafened by an artillery shell that blew up on the ground rather than in the air like it is supposed to. Several other mishaps with explosives occurred, but I do not feel like listing them. I would have pictures, but alas, I only just found my camera battery charger. I therefore have no pictures of Christmas, the after Christmas visit to VA/D.C., or anything else. Oh well, besides the loss of memory inducing pictures for when I get old, it was probably good for me. I was forced to experience things directly rather than at one remove through the camera lense/as events than merely existed to be photographed. The only picture I have of the holidays actually, is one that I drew of Thomas/the fiancé. More to write later. I better go see if he'll let me help now.

Cheers!

Merry Christmas Eve Everyone!

So yeah, school crap pretty much drowned me for a few weeks and then my bookstore flooded...so its been a hectic few weeks...but thankfully I am finally on vacation for a week or so.

I can't really post anything long so here are my thoughts:

People, not on the individual level, just the general populace, are dumb and make me angry.

The Ugly Truth-Watched it last night....I thought it could have been better.  It probably would have been more enjoyable in a different setting (i.e. not with the father).  I would have theoretically found it funnier and theoretically would have been less disconnected  and therefore less critical.

Inglorious Basterds- Bought it! yay!  Just as awesome on re-watch.

(500) days of Summer-Dying to get it for Christmas so I can re-watch it and be in heaven again.

Bones Christmas episode: ;)  

whoops, no more time...The food is ready at my Grandmothers, so we best get over there.

Enjoy the Holidays!

Randomness While Sick

So, before I say anything else, Monday night television was delightful.  HIMYM was much better, though I don't know how I feel about this Don fellow,  and BBT was great as always.

Right now I am suppose to be at the bookstore working, but like many days lately, I'm feeling a bit sick and had to call out.  I took some medicine so I'm feeling much better though.  For the last hour or so I've just been hanging around online doing this and that....catching up on shows and what not...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zxa6P73Awcg  <--Stephen Fry tweeted this earlier in the day.  amAZing!  The world never ceases with its wonder.  Thats why I love the phrase in my banner, "There's too much beauty to quit."  Its from This amazingly written and edited movie Stay.  ( no clue why I keep using amazing.)  The whole film really kind of is about beauty in a way.  I've been thinking a lot about this topic the last few days.  This, of course, being spurred by the fact that we're reading Virginia Woolf in Modern British Literature.  I love it....mainly though because I have always been so transfixed by beauty, both tragic and not.  Isn't it curious that, both Stay and a lot of Virginia Woolf's work, not to mention countless other works that talk about this beauty, are closely linked to suicide?  Is it that the artistic soul is just naturally depressed because of all of the sadness they perceive, or is the artistic soul just naturally a bit off its rocker to begin with?  Eh, who knows.  By the way, no need to worry.  I am not suicidal.  I might be a little paranoid and my  "mind is rather wreckless" , but that is all.  I just think the relationship is interesting.  I do like this last paragraph from The Unknown Virginia Woolf;  

"In 1941, it was the embodiment of Virginia which forced her decision.  She could not face being blown to bits.  The water was her friend ever since she was a child in Cornwall.  The water could be trusted.  The water was peace.  The water would receive her with the dignity that she felt she needed, and indeed, deserved" (Poole 279).

More to come probably on this subject later probably as I sit down to work on my paper on To The Lighthouse.  For now I must retreat back into A Thousand Acres and research on it so as to be prepared for my presentation on Monday.  

I will leave you with this, the last scene of The Hours, because I've been thinking of this movie over and over again while we've been reading Mrs. Dalloway and its just wunderbare.

(also this is an adorable homemade music video for Mraz' Sleeping to Dream if you want to watch it http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0274558/)

Cheers