Okay, so I feel like changing some stuff on here and becoming more active...I might be switching the name...or at least the banner. I've had this thing for a year now and it does not look exciting at all.

Tonight's HIMYM "The Rough Patch"

So, if you haven't watched How I Met Your Mother S5 E07 yet, then then you might not want to read the rest of this.

I don't know how to feel about the fact that Barney and Robin broke up. I think the idea of the episode was good, it just didn't necessarily translate as well to the screen. I feel like something that took two ish seasons to finally happen, should not be ended so quickly or so un-awesomely.

During the build up of the relationship, I was super into the idea of Robin and Barney. The mushy girl inside of me went all gooey anytime anything happened to bring the two together. There was this great tension there that just drew you in. Now, having said this, once they got together, it wasn't so exciting. They couldn't keep that same feeling there. I was really disappointed, but things did seem to be looking up. I figured after a few episodes they would really get the hang of writing for the couple. I think that is why I was so disappointed with this episode. I thought they had a lot more material left, and they just prematurely cut it all off. They didn't even give it any real build up or meaning like they normally do. While watching Robin and Ted together, you knew they didn't end up together, but their break up was still treated as this monumental thing.

So I guess when I say that I'm not sure what to think its because I don't know their meaning behind breaking them up. A big draw of the show was Barney's womanizer ways. If they felt that they were failing with writing the relationship and wanted to regain viewers that missed the old Barney, then I guess I could see it. Its disappointing, but understandable. Though, as we've seen, there is much more to Barney then what was previously assumed. They can't just take all of the progress he has made and throw it away just for ratings. I am hoping that they are using this episode to momentarily worry people and then slowly get them back together. They are both still somewhat flat characters, so maybe if they rounded them out a bit things a bit it'll work next time. Now that I think about it, that is what went wrong. They built up Barney's character last season, but flattened out Robin...We never really saw Robin's struggle with her feelings....so why are we to believe that she has them? When they got together, Barney was slowly flattened and Robin stayed the same. Its like they only wanted to use their relationship, as they have been with both characters lately, as a gimmick. I really hope they fix this, show some jealousy and show them wanting to get back together and all of that other jazz. If they don't, then I'll have to be forced to think that the writers are losing their touch, or at least are in a "rough patch" themselves. I just hope they get things back on track in time to bring in the mother and end the season. I would be really upset if they get themselves cancelled.

I hate saying any of this because How I Met Your Mother is one of my absolute favorite Television shows. I love the cast and I think the writers are skilled. I'm just not happy with this break up and needed to vent. Here's to hoping that the trouble Barney has next ep with dating after Robin is because he still loves her and is only pretending not to die inside!

Group Projects DO NOT work

This is a quote from one of my housemates to my rant yesterday about how I expected to get some real work done on my presentation with my group during our meeting, but didn't get anything done. I had my slides outlined and my pictures on my usb (though for some reason they weren't there) and one other girl had her slides done. The third party, however, was like 20 minutes late and didn't have anything done....and now tonight, when we finally emailed in our slides to one person and put it all together, that same person didn't do anything really how she was suppose to, and the presentation is tomorrow. There is always that one person who isn't quite on board. Work was done, I just wish we could have had more communication is all...or at least successful communication. I understand why we must have them, but yeah, group projects, even simple ones, are frustrating.

Okay, so I really wish that was written better...but oh well. I was just ranting. Now that that is over with, I need to write a critique on Pasolini's "Mamma Roma" (1962), practice my presentation some more and read some Joyce and some Morrison.

P.S. I constantly have stuff I want to write about, but by the time I get around to it, something has happened. That whole hope of being more focused on here this semester has really deflated. From here on out I will try to govern my time better and get stuff written.

cinedoche

So, you know who you are. If you see that I am following you...be happy, but do not judge what you read here. I planned on being über critical, but it has really just turned into my xanga for the "new" me. Hopefully, this will slightly change. I <3 you and envy your ability to focus.

"everybody everybody wants to love. everybody everybody wants to be loved"

So I'm just sitting here, after my driving lesson, listening to Ingrid Michaelson's lovely new cd, reading blogs, and procrastinating.

I don't even really have anything too painful to procrastinate. I have to finish Slaughterhouse Five,
read about Religion and Pop Culture,
ponder my existence,
order some of my textbooks,
think about writing but not actually do so,
possibly write a critique of a Scorsese documentary,
and finish laminating my table (it has a paper collage on it and I'm using laminating sheets to make it a warrior against the elements).

Now that I look at it..that is a lot...I'll get right on it....as soon as I watch some television and finish off my egg drop soup. Yum.

(so I started looking for ingrid vids...and got sidetracked watching Matt N. ones...sooo...I'm going to publish this before I forget about it.)

the first week

So, school has already made me tired. I'm excited to be learning what I am, but I'm not enjoying this strict schedule thing. Sure, over the summer I worked, but now I'm taking five classes and working 24-32 hours and that leaves no real time for anything but homework. I have been attempting to hang out for a while, but then I end up staying up too late finishing it all up. I let myself get too into the whole summer thing this time....or maybe just the non school thing. idk . I'll figure it out eventually. I think it takes, what, ten days to form a habit? I'm pretty sure thats it. So, hopefully, in a week or two, everything will be as it always was. I feel like I should be writing something purposeful or at least objective and important....but alas, I am not. I will probably waste my night away reading, listening to music, pondering about life and yes, even watching the Wizards of Waverly Place movie that premieres tonight....cus thats how I roll...

cheers peoples

"But I'll learn to get by on little victories"

So, I haven't written all summer....and now, I only have a few hours left of mine. I start my senior year at College of Charleston tomorrow morning. Its scary as crap. Now that I think about it its kind of interesting. My first class of college was a tuesday morning at 9:25 (psychology 101) and now I'm beginning this last year the same way... except this time its Modern British Lit....a class I have been waiting to take for seriously ever. I am pretty excited about the classes I am taking this semester, but at the same time it seems seriously odd that I am in fact going back. For some reason, after this summer I feel very distanced from school. It almost feels like I have already shed that portion of my life. I don't know why. I guess its just all that has happened, along with the fact that I have become a great deal more independent. Then again, I did kind of feel like this when I went back to school last semester. I think I commented on that feeling.

So, how am I getting ready to begin the new school year? I'm listening to Matt Nathanson radio (amaaaazing....its on his site), putting off cleaning and getting ready for tomorrow. I was watching Wizards of Waverly Place online (thats right, I'm so lame I've gone looking for Disney shows! Oh well, its a short break from the heaviness of Bones), but now I'm back to Mr. Nathanson. I really wish my fiancé was here to calm me down and force me to be productive, but he won't be off work until midnight. I'll get to see him and then go immediately to sleep....though class tomorrow isn't nearly as early as when I have to open the store....so maybe I will stay up.

I'll have to decide sometime soon what I want to do with my life. I have been thinking about becoming a librarian, but I'm not so sure. I am really loving this idea of watching television and film and writing stuff about it....I don't really mean in the strictly critical way either.....I mean in the full on research applying, meta-whatnot way. I really need to just hone my process and work on actually getting words on the page. I have soooo many thoughts that run through my head all day that I want write down, but I never get around to actually focussing those thoughts into a thesis oriented paper of sorts....or even a novel. I have been working on bits of creative writing my whole life and I haven't gotten any of them really finished....This goes along with my focus. I'm going to be studying a great deal of the contemporary and abstract this semester and hopefully that will help me orient everything. I would love to write a novel in some sort of an experimental form....the marriage of the visual and the textual is amazing... It just requires work....and confidence....That could be my problem....and prob is....I'm not confident that everyone is going to get it/like it/ what not, so I shy away and then I end up so shied away that its not even what I believe in anymore...and therefore it doesn't get to stay....Bah....

I need to stop rambling and actually do something.... I pledge to attempt to be a better student and a more organized student this last year....I pledge to actually start working on things so that I can write my papers to their full potential and not let them shy away to Bs....I pledge to work my thoughts through fully and not let them simmer, even if they will get me an A as is...I pledge to stop just trying to BE and try to actually be what I want. By the time I get married (this time next year ish) I want to have a Novel under way (actually under way and GROWING) and to have seen Mr. Nathanson in concert at least once more....He's so my favorite and seeing him live the other night just proved that to myself even more. I feel for some reason that I have as of late really been figuring out what I'm made of and what drives me...and I really interested to see where that takes me....

Cheers

(the title reference Btw)